Well ive got my blog going but I've no idea what I'm doing or even if others will be able to see it. I will be learning as I go along.
Yesterday I had a wonderful afternoon shopping with my friend sarah. I did however have terrible pain in my left leg by the end of the trip and slept right through until 10.30am this morning. I'm completely exhausted and even getting up was an effort. I had hoped to get to Church this morning as I havent been in ages because I've not been well enough but it wasnt to be today. I know that God will not be cross with me.
The chemo affects my taste buds and I never know what I fancy to eat or drink from day to day. Some days I can drink coffee, other days I can't bear it. I'm on Capecitabine tablets and take 6 twice a day which bumps up my medication (including my pain meds) to 29 tablets a day. If I was able to jump up and down I'd rattle.
Emotionally today I'm ok just very tired. These blogs are not meant to depress people but to give people a better understanding of what it is like to live daily with constant pain. My life certainly isnt depressing I won't allow it to be. When I finally go from this earth I don't want people to say that I succumbed to cancer because it evil and doesnt deserve that much glory. I want people to think "God has released me from pain, he has finished decorating my room in Heaven.
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