The following is taken from a brochure by We are Macmillan cancer support, booklet The Emotional effects of cancer page 24.. 9th edition 2008.
"When you talk to people with cancer, even the most positive of them will admit to low times when they felt depressed and anxious. NO one can be positive 100% of the time. You don't have to feel on top of things all the time. Being positive doesn't mean always having to feel happy and cheerful. IT'S a positive to acknowledge and talk about your feelings- even when you're feeling tired, worried, depressed or angry.
There may be times when you want to talk about a difficult topic like the chance of the cancer being cured or making a will. Comments about being positive are not always helpful....- in FACT, they can be very upsetting."
If anybody reading this feels they would like any literature or to even talk to somebody then contact MACMILLAN call free on 0808 808 0121 monday-friday 9am-8pm
or visit www.macmillan.org.uk.
Thursday 15 March 2012
Tuesday 13 March 2012
13th March 2012
Hello my friends, sorry haven't been on here in ages. The truth of the matter is that for a couple of weeks have felt very "flat" not depressed but just flat. I didn't want to speak to anybody or go out in public. I wasn't in the mood for people trying to cheer me up with "look on the bright side" attitudes. I just wanted to curl up and watch TV, and get lost within a good book. When my Husband and kids came home I was more than willing to chat to them.
Then Thursday of last week I was sat in my lounge watching TV when I suddenly started crying, my Daughter rushed into the room and asked what was wrong? I honestly didn't know. I just sobbed and sobbed to the point I could barely breath. My friend Sarah came round a bit earlier as we had planned to have lunch together anyway. It was the first time I think that she had ever seen me so upset. Most of the time I am smiley, chatty and upbeat, but I am human and get off days.
On Sunday morning the sun was shining so Chris my hubbie wanted to go out so we drove to my favourite village of Corfe. We had a cup of tea in the national trust cafe. All of a sudden I had the most horrendous hot flush where I was dripping wet. Then once the hot flush had gone I felt cold and wet and then shivery. I asked if we could go home. I then felt awful for spoiling Chris' day out. He put me my garden chair out on the patio and I sat and read a book in the sun. Next thing I know tears are just tumbling down my face. Why? I didn't know.
People see me out and about and comment on how well I look. the doctors say how well I look. the truth is that inside my body is crumbling to a wreck. Every mundane thing tires me out. I told a friend only today that I get dressed in the morning then I need a rest to recover from getting dressed.
I have been ill since 2006 and I am tired and worn out.
But must keep smiling.
:)
I
Then Thursday of last week I was sat in my lounge watching TV when I suddenly started crying, my Daughter rushed into the room and asked what was wrong? I honestly didn't know. I just sobbed and sobbed to the point I could barely breath. My friend Sarah came round a bit earlier as we had planned to have lunch together anyway. It was the first time I think that she had ever seen me so upset. Most of the time I am smiley, chatty and upbeat, but I am human and get off days.
On Sunday morning the sun was shining so Chris my hubbie wanted to go out so we drove to my favourite village of Corfe. We had a cup of tea in the national trust cafe. All of a sudden I had the most horrendous hot flush where I was dripping wet. Then once the hot flush had gone I felt cold and wet and then shivery. I asked if we could go home. I then felt awful for spoiling Chris' day out. He put me my garden chair out on the patio and I sat and read a book in the sun. Next thing I know tears are just tumbling down my face. Why? I didn't know.
People see me out and about and comment on how well I look. the doctors say how well I look. the truth is that inside my body is crumbling to a wreck. Every mundane thing tires me out. I told a friend only today that I get dressed in the morning then I need a rest to recover from getting dressed.
I have been ill since 2006 and I am tired and worn out.
But must keep smiling.
:)
I
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